Crying.... Good and Bad

Tonight I find myself crying for both good and bad reasons.... This last year has been a rollercoaster of emotions, realizations, and Life coming at me full force. I finally realized I was never in love with my ex husband, that my friends is a hard pill to swallow... 6 years of my life I spent each day telling myself I was in love and happy... Well I finally realized I wasn't and never was. My divorce has brought new beginings and exciting people into my life. I live each day one at a time and hope that my days will get better and each pass by. One can only hope I suppose. So for me Crying tonight is good and bad...

New Me!

Well... It has been forever since I've blogged and I need to blog more! I have so much going on in my life right now. George started school in August and he loves it! I'm so proud at how well he is doing.. We have had a few bumps but he is doing better now.. He is now out of speech therapy which thank goodness. I don't know if I ever blogged about this but when he was 1 1/2 closer to 2 he all of a sudden developed a studder and we thought it was because his mind was going way faster than he could get out of his mouth. But when he was 4 I took him into Weber County Early Intervention and they did a series of tests on him also because in Pre School they and I had major concerns with ADHD (it runs in the family) and they said he does show slight signs of ADHD but definatly has a speech impediment. So they put him in to speech therapy at the elementary across the street from pre school. Well he was put back in Speech when he started Kindergarten this year and only had to complete six weeks and is now DONE! YAY he is in a Reading program to get him on track with that and then in a Math Resource class! Today we started his IEP plan and I'm very pleased with it and hope it helps him succed in school! Reid turned 3 in September and is Sassier than ever her new thing is Mom your a Sassy Pants but she has a lisp so it's Thathy Panths lol she is so gorgeous it's sick. In October we decided to end our 6 year marriage and it's been pretty bumpy. I stress every day only becasue he is making me stress. He's being more difficult than I ever thought he would be with this process. I'm extremely happy though so I guess that kinda balances things out for me. I only want to concentrat on myself and the kids at the moment. I started school in September and I absoultly love it. I can't wait to finish and start a career which will hopefully lead to owning a house of my own one day! Awww Life is crazy and hecktic but has it's wonderful moments to...

~FALL 2010~

Well Fall so far has consisted of extremely HOT HOT weather.... Weird... anywho.. My Little Monster has started Pre-School which means next year he will no longer be my baby but he will officailly become my BIG BOY as he calls it. He loves loves loves school and they love having him there. I was so worried about him going because we have recently come to the conclusion that he has some form of ADHD. I had asked his Dr. about  it and when we could have him tested they said not until he is atleast 5 and in more of a "Real" school enviroment. Which makes sense but I already know he is hyper and impulsive with things here at home and refuses to let me teach him how to write his name or sing the alphabete with him. Anywho so I asked his pre-school teachers if they would watch him and let me know and they all looked at me funny and they were like really?? He's no more hyper than any of the other kids in his class and sits quietly and does his work listens too. I'm was like wait a minute here are we talking about the same George? They started laughing i'm like no seriously he's a different kid at home they said well maybe him being here and never being in an enviroment like this will help him calm down. So we shall see and hopefully it works and I wont ever have to put him on medications. Keep your fingers crossed. haha on a lighter note Reid is doing well starting to talk more and put sentences together. We just had their pictures taken some for her 2nd Birthday and then some of them together. They are getting so big so fast and I'm trying to be okay with it and take it all in but I'm also kinda sad at the same time, they are my babies and I always want them to be little and cute and tell me that they love me everyday atleast 10 times a day. On to Matthew Alan and I well we made it to 5 years with out killing eachother lol. I Love him so much and me truely is my best friend. So here's to another 5 years and much more after that!!! 

George's First Day of Pre- School

 Slurpee Time

My Reidie Roo and her very fist Real Pony Tail!

TAGGED......

Okay so I was reading Kendra's blog and she tagged everyone so here it goes..... 
 Here are her Questions...
 1- What is the craziest thing you have ever done? HMMMM.... The Craziest  thing I've ever done I'd have to say is, graduated high school I met my husband got married 6 months later, and then welcomed our son George into the world 6 months after that. That was one CRAZY year for me. 
2- If you won the lottery what would you do with the money? First I would buy my husband and I our perfect little house with a fenced in yard, then I'd probably help my parents pay off their house, Take the kids to Disney Land, give some to a charity, open up college savings accounts for my two kids, put away money for each of their weddings.
3- Who would you say is your best friend (besides your spouse)?Alie Mae, She has been my Bestie since I was a junior in high school and she was a sophmore we met that year and grew to be the best of friends. She's really the perfect friend, she's always there when you need her and even if you haven't talked in a long time( her husband is in the army and they are currently stationed in North Carolina) when we do we go right back to how we were before. I love her so much and we've been through so much together. She introduced me to my husband and I introduced her to her's lol our husbands are super good friends to so that's a plus for the both of us. Her son is 9 days older than my youngest (daughter).
4- What does a perfect day look like for you? Spending time with my super disfunctional family.
5- What are you passionate about? Being a mom, Being a good example, Drawing, Trying to make a small difference in the world one step at a time. 
6- Did you have any resolutions for 2009? If yes- what were they and have you accoplished any? um not really just try to be a little less stressed out. Make more time for me. Spend more time with my girl friends( every girl needs that girl friend time) it was a 50 / 50 accomplishemnt.
7- What do you see yourself doing in 10 years? Going back to school, graduating, buying a house, hopefully be living in a different state, Watching my kids grown into big kids.
8- If you could have a feast of your favorite foods- what would be on the menu? well I love food and my husband is in school to be a chef so  here we go... I would have Turkey Fried Steaks( with Ketchup) Mashed potatos, Green Bean Casserol, Rolls, Salads ( Green salads, chicken bowtie pasta salad, my mom's potato salad, my husbands pasata salad) Rootbeer floats, Lime rickey's, then for desert, my mom's pumpkin cookies with cream cheese frosting, Cheesecake, and of course My extremely Large DIET COKE! haha ( just so you know my mouth is watering at this very moment)


Now I'm Tagging all of.... YOU!!!!!!!!!  Give it your best shot here are my Questions for you to answer....

1- If you could spend a day with anyone you wanted (deceased or alive) who would you pick and why?
2- What is your favorite time of the year?
3- What did you always want to be when you grew up? and did you become what you wanted to be?
4- If you could live anywhere in the world where would you live?
5- What are the top five things you want to do before you Die?
6- If you could go back in time and do something over would you do it or leave it?
7- If you could change your name would you? What would you change it to?
8- Favorite Childhood Cartoon, TV show, Movie??? 

~PICNIC AT THE PARK~

So my cute mom Loves to just pick a random day and spend it with the kids which is so FUN and they just love my mom or as George says Grema and Reid says MaMa. haha so here are some of our pictures from our adventure at Huntsville Park.....
                                                                                     Reid just loved the Swings

George had to have his picture taken by the Dinosaur foot prints...(he loves loves loves dinosaurs)

To Long For No Post!

Well it's officially August and this year has gone by so fast. My baby girl turns 2 in a month and i'm so up and down about it. I miss having a baby baby but at the same time I love seeing her experience the world and all. George starts Pre-School in Sept. i'm so excited for him but sad at the same time. It's going to be weird dropping him off on his fist day I just might cry. haha well here are some picutres of the kids just a couple recent ones off of my phone. 











George pre-hair cut

Finished product. He calls it his Manny do! (Our friend Manuel wears his hair like this and George just loves him to pieces and when Manuel moved back to Colorado George decided he wanted a Manny Do!)

My little baby of Love Reidie Roo Roo....  Her hair decided it was going to be perfect little wringlets and I'm so jealous but it fits her so well.

Can you say "GANGSTA" lol they make me laugh so hard each day with the Corky little things they do together!

This one is from when my brother came home from his Mission... He served the Australia Adileaide mission. We are all so Proud of him and the man he's become!




                 We spent a whole afternoon amazed at the cool pictures we could do on our phones
                  with the NEGATIVE setting haha here are some of the pics.....

                                                              Matthew aka "HUSBAND"

                                                       George aka "HULK"                     

                                                           Reid aka "ROO ROO"

Why.... Must we get so attached to some people???

It seems like people come and go out of our household.... ALOT, and we grow so attached to most of them... Some are friends, some are family, some become family in our hearts and in the end it's so hard to say goodbye. I HATE goodbyes, they are the worst thing ever so for me a see ya soon is much much better to deal with. So whether you have stayed at our home or come into our lives for a short period of time remember you will always be part of our lives and our families lives.