Sick Feeling

You know when you Get that awful sick feeling in the pit of your stomach. Like you know or feel that something is wrong.Yep surely do have that at the moment. I hate when Matt goes out cause I worry so much. I know I admit i'm the biggest worry wart there is (I get it from my mother, Thanks mom) I just hate it so much. Cause when you get this horrible feeling you know something is wrong but you know deep down you can't do anything about it. Cause it's already happening and you honestly don't know what it is that's taking place or going wrong. DANG IT........... I hate it.

To Short

Sometimes I sit back and think to myself.....You know life is way to short to dwell on the bad things that happen or go on or the bad things that have been said. You need to live you need to keep on pushing through each day and remember the amazing things you Do have or the amazing people in your life that you never want to lose. Life isn't about the expensive nice things, the nice big house, the amount of money in your bank, the fancy car... Life is about being free and enjoying every minute you have with the ones you love... I know I appreciate the roof over my head(it may not be the big fancy house with everything new inside it) but it's my house and I love it. I appreciate the amazing children god has given me and the knowledge and strenght to be the best mom I can be.  I appreciate my husband even though he's a pain in my butt sometimes I'm still madly in Love with him. I apprecaite my parents for putting up with all my crap growing up and then loveing the person I've become today.  I'm not perfect I'm not Rich but you know what I do have love and happiness in my life and that's a lot compared to some people. I just hope every one can appreciate someone or some of the things they have in their lives because you never know ONE DAY IT JUST MIGHT BE GONE.

Life

So i've been reading this blog by a lady named Kendra and her story is amazing and powerful. I've cried, smiled, laughed and adored reading her story. She is such a strong woman, she has been through so much in the last year that I can't even imagin how she goes one each day. Her blog is so moving and truly inspirational. She has taught me that you CAN'T take life for grantit even if it's not your own. To love every minute with your children and Cherish those memories cause one day it could be gone. I love that she blogs about her feelings it's really nice to know there are people out there willing to share there stories. I hope she keeps on going day by day and makes it through her tough time. I wish her family happiness and I pray for you always. Keep your baby's memory alive and share your story with everyone! It truly is powerful and moving. So I thank you for that and I thank you for teaching me to be a better person.

ANGRY!

So I'm writing this post because i'm irritated and angry with my husband. I don't understand why it's so hard to stay home with your kids and not complain while I go to the hospital to visit my Grandma? Get home and he's mad at me for being gone 3 hours. Not to mention I was there with her by myself and had to help her eat dinner. Then his friend comes over tonight and says hey lets go to Josh's house. So my wonderful husband says I'm going with them i'll be back later i'm like how are you coming home?? I can't just leave the kids here alone sleeping? So he proceeds to tell me I'll find a way and I know exactly how that one's going to go. I wont even see him till tomorrow afternoon. So I say okay and his like are you going to be mad at me? I say No i'm not going to be mad but hey when Can I go out to have a girls night??? He says well you were gone for like four hours today that should be good enough. Um excuse me I went to see my Grandma who just had serious surgery yesterday and I couldn't take either of my kids with me because they don't allow they back in the rooms. So I don't think that counts as a girls night out.
Every married couple should get to atleast have some ME time once in awhile. It's not fair when one gets to do whatever and go where ever and not have to do anything. And the other gets to stay home with the kids or when does go out HAS to take a child everytime. That's not Fair and I'm really sick and tired of it.
Let me know your opinions about this please and help me Get my girls night out at least once a month.